Too Much, too weird, not enough

Gate 23 and the Women Who Were Told they needed more tact.

I’ve always spoken from the heart. Even as a girl, I would just… say it. Whatever came through.It didn’t feel edgy or jarring to me — it just felt true. Natural. Honest.

But I was often told I had “no sieve.” That I needed to filter things more, think before I spoke, be more palatable. That comment — “you need a sieve” — haunted me. Because the last thing I ever wanted to do was make people uncomfortable, or to hurt people's feelings.

So, I started second-guessing everything. Stumbling over my words. Thinking for ages before I spoke. And in the process, I lost access to the thing that made me me: My voice as a direct line from my heart.

Gate 23 sits in my unconscious Moon — Line 1. It’s deep. Emotional. Internal. It runs on felt sense, not logic. And when I started watering myself down to fit what others could receive, I lost the rhythm. The timing. The clarity.

It’s taken me years to slowly walk myself back. To learn that I can’t think my way into the right words. I have to feel them. I have to speak from my body, not from my head.

And I often wonder…what could have been a better way to support that younger me?

What if someone had said: “Your truth matters. Let’s just slow down and feel when it’s the right time to share it.” What if someone had helped me hold the space for my words, instead of shaming them? What if someone had taught me that being too much wasn’t a fault; it was a gift that just needed right timing?

I wasn’t wrong. I was just growing.

I had all this power and, in my heart, and I didn't have the wisdom to handle it yet.

That’s the frequency of Gate 23. And if you carry this energy — whether it’s defined or undefined — you’ve likely felt the ache of being “too much,” “too blunt,” “too weird,” or just “too hard to follow.”

Gate 23 Defined

You’ve got insight. You can feel the clarity sitting just behind the fog. But when you speak it too soon, too fast, or with the wrong audience… crickets. Judgement. Awkward silences. You’ve probably been told you sound arrogant, scattered, or just a bit off. So, you retreat. You start doubting your brilliance. Or worse, you dumb it down to be more “digestible.” But still, you miss the mark.

Gate 23 Undefined

You’ve been soaking up other people’s voices your whole life. Tuning into what’s palatable. Echoing opinions to stay safe. You may feel the urge to speak… but doubt floods in: “Is this mine?” “Will they get it?” “Will I sound stupid?” So you stay silent. You overthink. You walk out of conversations wishing you’d just said what was on your heart.

Let’s Be Honest: This Didn’t Start in Adulthood

Think back. When was the first time your voice didn’t land? When did “stop,” “no,” or “I don’t want to” get ignored, mocked, or punished? When did you first learn that expressing yourself came with a cost?

This is where we begin. Because Gate 23 is not just about speaking. It’s about the courage to be heard, even when your voice shakes, even when your truth is strange, even when you don’t have all the right words.

This is the Healing of Gate 23:

In our upcoming Heart Cave workshop, we will:

• Call back your voice from where it was silenced

• Speak the truth your inner child never got to say

• Connect your vocal cords to the actual beat of your heart — no filters, no performance

• Shift the frequency of this gate from confusion to clarity

Because when your heart leads, your voice doesn’t need to justify itself. It just lands. Soft. Clean. Whole. And the world can finally hear you.

This is for the woman who:

• Was told she was too much or too emotional

• Rehearses conversations in her head for hours

• Feels silenced in her relationships or workplace

• Knows she has wisdom, but can’t find the timing or the words

• Wants to speak from her truth — not her trauma

Join Us in the Heart Cave

This workshop is for you if you’re ready to reclaim your voice, rewire the old patterns, and speak from the deepest truth of your being — the one that doesn’t need to explain.

This Thursday (15/05/2025) night at 6pm and it's open to you for free.

This is not about being louder. It’s about being truer.

Your heart has a rhythm. Your voice has a place. Let’s bring them together.

Please email me hello@lucyellis.com.au with Gate 23 in the subject line to secure your spot, and if you are reading this after the fact and you still want to learn, email me and I can send you the recording.